God Knew

"ONE"

After weeks of countless injections, bloodwork, ultrasounds, and surgery, we would love to share news of the myriad of fertilized eggs but unfortunately, this is not the case. Out of the seven eggs retrieved last Tuesday, only one made it to blastocyst (early stage of an embryo). When I read the news yesterday afternoon, my heart sank.

But God knew.

Per our diligent embryologist, our little embryo has been biopsied and sent off for PGT (genetic testing). So again, we wait. This process will take another 10-15 days before know if our little six-day-old embryo will be viable for transfer.

But God knew.

Though we recognize God's handiwork in every aspect of this IVF journey, yesterday it became real. To be honest, it was the hardest day because for a split moment, my hope wavered.

But of course, God knew.

For an hour, I considered the possibilities. The "what ifs" flooded my brain, and the thoughts of keeping this news between us crept in.

Then peace flooded in and I was reminded of Hebrews 10:23. It says, Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.

We don't know how, we don't know when, but we do know God knows what's going on. He is not unaware, shocked, or even disappointed with my moment of weakness. This is what makes Him a good, good Father.

We also know He is a God of miracles and of all creation. Each of us literally started as ONE. And let me be clear, having each of you in our lives is evidence God can do amazing things with just ONE.

Thank you for your patience. We are tremendously grateful for you all who are constantly checking up on us, loving us, encouraging us, and most of all, praying for us. We’re asking for a double dose of grace over the next few weeks and we will keep you up to date as soon as we can.

Joyfully expectant of Baby Jackson,

Daniel & Carolyn