The month of May was a treacherously long month. Though it only has thirty-one days, it was longer than I had imagined and God had to hold my hand the entire way.
It has been a month since we lost our little cuddle bug, Blade. I did not understand why as our prayers were diligent and persistent but when the time came, we knew it was time for him to go and I knew, crying for days would be of absolutely no use.
This was about the time other news came tumbling down but God ensured me by His Word in Ecclesiastes 3 that everything has a season.
To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven:
A time to be born, And a time to die; A time to plant, And a time to pluck what is planted; A time to kill, And a time to heal; A time to break down, And a time to build up; A time to weep, And a time to laugh; A time to mourn, And a time to dance; A time to cast away stones, And a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing; A time to gain, And a time to lose; A time to keep, And a time to throw away; A time to tear, And a time to sew; A time to keep silence, And a time to speak; A time to love, And a time to hate; A time of war, And a time of peace.
After being laid off my job after almost fourteen years, I knew storming out of the office would be of absolutely no use and deep down I knew God had everything in control.
And this was the moment I realized three significant things.
One, my level of faith had grown exponentially. Two, peace resided in my heart and I never knew it and three, God was making sure I knew that He was first and foremost.
God's goal is not how much I make on a paycheck. He cares if I am a servant at work and if I tithe according to His Word.
God's goal is not if I have a dog or not. God wants me to be loving, patient and kind to something other than myself.
God's goal is not if my husband is at my beck and call. God wants my husband to be second to Him and for me to be loyal, honest and respectful, especially when he is away.
Like the story of Job, through all of the suffering (Please note, I was not suffering as Job) I was not being punished because I did something wrong or because I behaved badly. God was molding me into the Daughter He wants me to be.
If it were up to me, I would ask God to snap his glorious fingers and POOF! I am this beautiful, holy creation walking a sinless life. As soon as I wake up from that little nonsense of a dream, I realize, He works on me as fast as He wants, probably so I do not die or run as fast as I possibly can.
God is building my character and my duty is to keep my head held high and attitude in check so I do NOT sin while this character building takes place.
I urge you to pray and fast with zeal during these times of trials and tribulation. It might not take all the pain away but it will put into light of how Gracious our Heavenly Father really is.
Since last month, (c'mon, you knew a testimony was coming, right?)
God has made a way with my current career, I did not have to leave and now working part-time (I know God has something BIG coming), my husband is at home and is enjoying our new companion, Moose ...
Yes, that is Moose.
Moose is five months old and we adopted him from Brave Bully Rescue and learning to love all over again, and THIS is what God wants. This is God's goal, to teach us how to love and how to let go.
Everything has its seasons, this includes us as well.
We are to enjoy every moment we have with our family and friends, to be loving and kind to one another, encourage and lift up those around us and most importantly, worship and praise our God in heaven because there will be a day when we too will be in the Kingdom.